| ButterflyLois I am the youngest of 6 children. I have 3 sisters, 2 brothers..At the age of 10 months my birth father decided his life was over, took his life, leaving all of us with an unstable, and drunken mother. She fell apart, and decided it was best if someone else took us, and raised us. None of her 13 brothers and sisters took any of us, we were scattered to the wind....... At 14 months old, my birth mother took all of us children to the local police department and left us there, for them to find homes for us. From that day on for 35 years, I never saw my brothers or sisters again. We know some of our history, we are said to be Indian, but we have no proof...our heritage is gone. I was the youngest of us and the first to be adopted out.The 2 people that adopted me were loving and kind, and raised me the best they knew how. They taught me to respect my elders, never lie, be clean, and work hard to get what i felt i wanted or needed, i've worked since i was 13 years old. I was raised with another sister, that was adopted as well. I was born with a birthmark on the left side of my face. It goes from the corner of my eye to the hair line. It is in the shape of a butterfly, brown in color. Having any sort of body impediment is hard when u are very young, kids are very honest and open, they saw the mark on my face and would make jokes, and laugh at me. I have always known I was adopted, and so did everyone in the small town I grew up in. So being adopted and having a mark on my face was double trouble for me , so to speak. Many times I would go home after school in tears because someone made a remark like " ahhh your own mommy didnt want you, why she gave you away", or "look at the dirty face you have, you're ugly", and call me names. I would be so hurt. and I would rush home to my dad in tears. Daddy was always home, he was a mechanic, had his own garage, in the back yard, accessible by the alley, which was perfect for his business. Daddy & I were close ever since I was tiny, as I loved being outside, and watching him work, and we would go berry picking and fishing. I was my daddys little girl. I always went straight to the garage. Momma would yell at me cuz, no matter how hard I tried, I always got grease or something on me. and I HAD to be clean! momma's rules..... I came home in tears one day , I was about 7, I think. Of course I went straight to my dad. He saw I was crying and I told him what the kids said about me. I told him "Daddy, they said cuz I have a dirty face my mommy & daddy didnt want me so they gave me away". Why i'm dopted, they didnt want me cuz I have a dirty face " , I remember the tears streaming down my face, and looking up at Daddy, he had the sweetest smile on his face, he said nothing , but walked over and washed his hands, took off his coveralls, took me by the hand and led me out to the yard, and we sat on the swing. Daddy, held onto my hand, and said "Lois , honey, momma & I took you because you WERE alone, yes, but we took you because we WANTED to, because we need you. those other kids, their mom's & dad's had to keep them..but we PICKED you special, because we love you, and wanted you here with us." I beamed up at him..and I then said "but Daddy, they make fun of my birthmark". They tell me its ugly, I sadly told him. Dad takes both hands, and holds my face and says to me "Lois, your mother & father left you, yes honey, but the angels the day you were born , they knew you would be given away by your mother, that there may be times you would feel you have no one, that you are by your self and you aren't. "The angels decided", he said, so you would never forget, that you are not ever alone, they kissed you on your cheek, just so you know , you will NEVER be alone EVER.. No matter what, and all you have to do is look in the mirror, and see the beautiful butterfly they put on your face, just to remind you , you are never alone its the angels kiss for you Lois". Its a special butterfly that will stay with you forever, and no one can take that away from you". I jumped up, hugged my Dad, kissed him, told him "Daddy you are the best dad in the whole world" . He took my face in his calloused hands and kissed the butterfly on my face, and he says "See Lois, i've kissed you there too my girl, I'll be with you always too". Daddy smiled and went back to his garage. and I think then I went in the house to tell my mom I was home...I was glad i had my butterfly now! My angels are with me and so is my dad, always....... A year ago when I got my computer one of my honeygirls, my niece (all my nieces are my honeygirls)was setting up my computer for me, and putting AIM on for me. She said "Auntie, we need a screen name for you, what should it be?" I told her i had no idea, and what was a screen name? A little bit later I went over to her, and she says "Auntie, I gave you a name, you are ButterflyLois, cause of your birthmark, and you are so beautiful, you need a pretty name. Now when you are online they will know what a beautiful person you are by the name, there are NO ugly butterflies" she said smiling. This is a true story and will give you a bit of an insight on this person I am so glad you consider your friend. So my friends, now you know how I came to be me... | 
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